The other day, my husband and I were talking about a time in his life when he was faced with a medical crisis. He could have easily died. Then we talked about where I was in my addiction at that time unbeknownst to him. He had no idea of the demons I was struggling with. Heck, I consciously was unaware myself.
Life is just funny like that when I look back on it…glimpsing at how intertwined and interwoven God has mapped out my days. So, hubby and I went on to talk about the what ifs had turned out different in our life, we may be facing a different time for our family now.
But we were one of the lucky ones.
Not just because my husband lived but because I am clean today– No small feat. No small miracle!
Some days when I find it hard to get out of bed and carry on, I try to remember that God has a greater plan for me. (Jer 29:11)
I don’t know what the plan is but I know what it has taught me thus far. What sobriety has taught me is I’m no longer quick to judge. I have been where most people will never go so who am I to judge.
I love deeply. I have learned to love past all the warts and scars.
I inhale the sweet aromas of fresh blooming flowers. I have come to cherish the vibrant colors and fresh scents they exude.
I now enjoy silence and the stillness of peace in the midst of Chaos. I sense the breath of the God Almighty.
The demons and the slayers of dragons—are shadows of the past.
Today I enjoy—me.
Beautifully awkward…
Love,
Connie
Her Broken wing 